Saturday, September 19, 2009

When Nothing Else Explains It

FD and I are separating.

My heart is broken. I wanted more for Froggy and myself. I have nothing else to say, except that my soul hurts. Rather than go into details, these are the songs that say it all. I'll leave it to Janis and Nina, Adele and Joni to tell you how I feel.

Little Girl Blue - Janis Joplin

A Letter to Elise - The Cure

Pale Blue Eyes - Velvet Underground

If You Knew - Nina Simone

Make You Feel My Love - Adele

Close Your Eyes - James Taylor and Carly Simon

Threw It Away - Bob Dylan

Bell bottom Blues - Eric Clapton

Who'll Stop the Rain - CCR

All I Want - Joni Mitchell

River - Joni Mitchell

Sugar in my Bowl - Bessie Smith

Do What You Gotta Do - Nina Simone

I Made a Lovers Prayer - Gillian Welch

Daughter - Loudan Wainwright III


DutchMac said...

Oh hon, my heart is breaking for you! I can neither imagine the ache you're experiencing nor express how much I wish it wasn't happening for you. If you ever need to verbal vomit, you know where to find me. I'm a judgment-free sounding board from across the miles.

Don't try to be brave through all this; ask for help and love as much as you need. We're all here for you.

Much love from across the pond.


Angela said...

So sorry to hear about this - I'm thinking about you!!

Martin said...
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Martin said...

I'm sad, shocked, mad. I can't imagine your emotions! Sorry.
Remember you have a great family & wonderful friends to lean on too.
You're a strong woman. My prayers and thoughts are with all of you.

Give Addie a hug & take one for yourself also.


Beverly said...

I'm so sorry.

Cara said...

My heart is so sad for you, Elise. My words don't flow as beautifully as yours, but please know that I am thinking of you and praying for absolutely nothing but good things as you move onward. Sending love and hugs your way.

Rach said...

Oh, Elise, I love you. I love you because you are kind. I love you because you are caring. I love you because you are smart and interesting and funny and talented and thoughtful. I wish there was something I could do to take your pain away.

Anonymous said...

so sorry you are going through a tough time right now. the details are not my business...but i'm thinking of you and sending happy wishes your way. jcn

ferfischer said...

I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you.

holly said...

I'm so sorry you have to go through this Elise. My thoughts are with you. Stay strong mama.

Anonymous said...

So sorry! You're in my thoughts.

Max's mom age 6 wcf

Azer's Mom said...

I am very sorry to hear this. Get lots of support from your family. Talk it out as much as possible, if it makes you feel better.

Your daughter is amazing.

Infidel Rooster said...

What to say except, that sucks and I'm sorry. I wish the best for all of you.

Mieke said...

The best advice I received was from a virtual stranger, a blog reader in fact I did not know. She told me to lean into the pain. It was brilliant advice.


Anonymous said...

Oh Elise, I am so very sorry for the both of you!

Truth be told, I have been afraid to check your posts lately... it has been there for a long time, in the photos, in his eyes.

You are an AMAZING woman, who I admire very much. An amazing mother, an amazing writer, an amazing person, period. The past 4 years have been extremely difficult, and you have borne the brunt. I wish I could help you somehow, that I weren't so far away... Please let me know if there is ever anything...