Saturday, July 26, 2008


I don't think there is anything more stressful and heartbreaking than being in the middle of a crisis and having no control over the outcome. It's like watching a tornado overhead, and hoping that when it touches down there is something left of the house.

I want something I can't have. But today after a moment of clarity and sadness I realized that like most things, it's not up to me.

In my life, my career, my marriage, my child, no amount of hard work or dedication can fix what's broken. I can't convince the tornado to turn around and choose another house. Somethings just are. And as tao or accepting as that sounds. It just really sucks.


Beverly said...

I hear you. There are some things we can't fix. I would do anything for my children. As a mother that's what you want to do, but as you say, it's not up to you.

Hugs to you and Froggy.

Anonymous said...

Que sera sera? What will be will be? You are right. It sucks to be the powerless speck of dust caught in the eye of the hurricane.

I'm feeling sad for whatever storm it is that is looming over you right now, and hoping for a better day ahead.

Anonymous said...

how do you in the middle of such a storm still manage to write about it so beautifully? sorry you are in the middle of something. i need to take a lesson from you. jcn

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